First SA Results

We dropped of DH's SA sample to the lab yesterday. I hadn't gotten around to calling the doctors office to tell them yet and I get a call. It's the doctors office and they have the results. I was very surprised! They didn't tell us how long it would take for his results so I didn't really know what to expect! Obviously not long at all! 

They said his count and volume were both low. My doctor wants him to go ahead and do another SA to make sure he wasn't just having an off day. Although they did say he had good motility and health - basically even though volume and count was low what was there was alive and kickin'. To make sure he has plenty of time to build his count back up we are abstaining from sex until Sunday at the earliest. DH will turn in his second sample on Sunday; which will give him 5 days. This way the results will be ready for the doctors office when they open on Monday. 

I was looking at it and the timing is perfect. My doctor wanted me to come in on CD 30 to take a pregnancy test. If I am not pregnant then I will start Provera. Provera will then start AF. My blood work results will determine whether we start IF treatments or not. If my testosterone levels are high (which can be the case in women with POCS) then we will take another month off and try to get my testosterone levels in check. My doctor said it usually only takes about a month and then they go back to normal. I would take a medication for this. Once my testosterone levels are in check I will then start If medications. If my insulin is acting up with will move forward with Metformin + Clomid. If my testosterone is normal then this will be where we start in general. If everything they are testing is normal then I don't know where we will start. We didn't talk about this option. If DH's second SA results come back and are still not where they need to be he will have to go see a urologist; which would mean we would take time off until he gets his count and volume back up. 

I feel kind of bad for him. This whole time we have known that I have PCOS and so it was my fault (for lack of a better way of saying it) that we weren't getting pregnant. Now the doctor is finally looking at him too in order to make sure we address all problems and don't waste any time. He was so nervous yesterday when we were talking about his SA and it broke my heart today when I told him the results. I know we will make it through this regardless. He has been amazing throughout this journey so far. He has been there when I just needed to cry or vent. He has been there when I was having really bad days. I will be there for him if he needs me. He is my everything and I love him a million.

Here's to hoping the second SA comes back good. No, better than good. Here's to hoping it comes back GREAT!

Things are looking up!

Well I made an appointment with my doctor for yesterday only to have to reschedule it for today. We got in yesterday and the receptionist told me my doctor had to run to the hospital to deliver a baby and to come back in about an hour. No big deal I didn't have any other plans for the day and DH took the rest of the day off. Plus I absolutely did not want to reschedule because I had been waiting for this appointment for about a month. We came back in an hour went back to the room did the usual (weight, blood pressure, and health questions) and finally the nurse says "Okay, the doctor will be in shortly he will talk to you and then do your exam (I was also doing my annual - unfortunately)." While we were waiting DH and I are looking around the room and he asks "Do you think those lights work?" I kind of laughed and said it was in case ladies/couples wanted some ambiance lighting during their appointment. I thought it was pretty fun and it definitely helped lighten the mood. I had been stressing out about this appointment for about a week.

About 10 minutes later my doctor came in hurriedly apologized because the baby he has just delivered wasn't doing well and he had to leave to go make sure it was okay and see what was going on. While I was disappointed we were going to have to reschedule I did understand. Considering we were going to talk to him about picking back up IF treatment it was heart warming to know he is very attentive. So we ended up having to reschedule anyway. Luckily they got us in today pretty early in the morning and DH had the day off. Thankfully it worked out perfectly.

We talked to my doctor about what testing we had done and the diagnosis and such. Went through everything. He decided he wanted to do an u/s to make sure and see for himself that I do in fact have PCOS. I have done this 3 times now and I must say it doesn't get any more fun or less awkward. Even though I know he does this on a regular basis anyone I don't know around my vagina is an uncomfortable feeling. I guess that is a good thing. When we got done he went over what PCOS is and what happens in the ovaries in someone with PCOS. I learned a lot and I appreciated that he wanted me to know everything that was going on in my body. Both of my other doctors have never really taken the time to actually explain it to me in depth. Just more of a here is your diagnosis, here is your treatment, see you later. It was very refreshing and a nice change! We talked about the blood tests that my RE had done. He mentioned he did not test my testosterone (which is sometimes higher in ladies with PCOS), cholesterol, and a diabetes test - all checked through blood work.

He wanted to go ahead and check these to determine what our treatment plan would be. If my testosterone is high then we need to get it back to normal. If I am having problems with my insulin then they will put me on Metformin + Clomid. Either way we have to wait for the labs to come back. I was very good. I sat down in the chair and didn't even have tears well up. This is a big deal for me. I hate needles. I know what you're thinking you hate needles and you are trying to get pregnant? Sometimes you get over things because something else is more important; which is how I feel about having children. The nurse said it would take about 3 days for my labs to come back. DH also has to do a SA. We got home and I think the nerves finally started to kick in. All this time we have been trying we have known that I had an issue that was holding us back. I think he is nervous about finding out the results of his test because what if he does have an issue. He did just fine though. We turned it in today. The doctor said it had to be 48 hours since the last time we had sex. While we did have sex on Sunday it was early enough that he could go ahead and do his SA today; which I was excited about. Because I just want him to get it done so we can figure out the results. The nice thing is if he does have an issue it is usually just a simple medication fix.

So now we wait. This will be the longest three days of my life. Hoping it will be okay and we can start treatment back up soon.

Catching You Up

Welcome to my blog! This is my very first post and I couldn't be more excited about it. I had a Xanga forever but apparently that went out of style? Just a quick tip I do use a lot of acronyms from the bump. On the left is a list of the most commonly used ones and what they mean. I guess to start off I will tell you a little bit about myself and DH and our journey so far. DH and I met in 2010 when I was buying my computer. We hit it off and went out on a date. Who knew two years late I would be marrying my best friend and love of my life. As my blog states above we actually started TTC in December of 2011. I told DH I was worried that it may take some time. We both agreed that we wanted to start a family right away. Even if we got pregnant right away we would be okay with it. Obviously it didn't happen because we are still trying. We got married in April of 2012 and in July of 2012 I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome) and I found out I don't ovulate.

This was devastating for me. I know it was hard on DH but I don't think it affected him as much as it did me. I have been struggling with depression since I was about 15 and this did not help. I went through a period were I was very depressed and I could not believe my body would essentially betray me. A woman is supposed to be fertile. To carry children. This is one of her most essential jobs in my opinion. So to find out my body didn't work that way on its own was crushing. We start Provera and Clomid right away; Provera to start my period and Clomid to induce (or help with) ovulation. We did 3 rounds of this and nothing. We decided to take a break - well mainly I decided I wanted to take a break. I was still dealing with some strong emotions from getting my diagnosis and I never really got a period to just take it all in and come to terms with it (on any level). Our last medicated cycle was November - December in 2012. I have finally decided I want to start medicated cycles again. We are waiting for our appointment. I am going to ask about some other medications that may work better; such as metformin and possible a trigger in addition to the Clomid. It will all really depend on what our doctor thinks is best; but I want to take a more aggressive approach this go around!